So this year has been pretty crazy.

Me previous Boss RW got terminated. It was kind of crazy because either it was her going or us leaving. One person really was able to spoil the whole team. It’s true what they say, the fish rots from the head.

So shortly after she left I was so relieved and tried stepping up to really gather the team to try and ensure that the team would be handled. It turns out that D from the other team was being pushed out and that they had a change of plans to put him in charge of outlet.

It turns out that it really wasn’t a bad idea, he’s been really great for the team. The major issue with RW was her constant need to micromanage the team which was really inefficient. He does a great job leading the team and making sure that we have a great work life balance.

I’ve felt really comfortable having him be my manager and

It has been an extremely rough year at work. Had some major drama with my boss and in the end had to go above and speak to her manager.

It was extremely nerve racking because I ultimately betrayed her but in hindsight I have no regrets. I had zero sleep constantly going over the things I was going to say to her over and over, it was crazy.

With the support of her boss I was able to come clean about how I felt about her management. With absolutely zero sleep I came clean and spilled the tea. She was very flustered and I’m sure embarrassed that her direct report was coming to her with these harsh comments about her but I think it was kind of like a wake up call / smack in the face /realization of her old habits creeping back in. It was kind of perfect that all of that happened at the end of the year and having a long break (Christmas and New Years) to reflect and also kind of let the heat of that moment dissipate.

I know that its very hard for some bad habits to completely change but the fact that she was open to actually try and make effort to change has made a difference. It was a big enough change for the rest of the team to notice.

I feel like were starting to build a better relationship and feel like there has been a fresh start. I know that shell never be able to actually forget what I said to her but sometimes you have to be brutally honest and straight with certain people.

So far so good, were starting a new season so lets hope the good behavior continues.

So I’ve finally turned 36 this year.

It’s pretty bizarre to feel past my mid thirties. In terms of accomplishments, I feel like director title at my age seems just about right so I feel really great.

Ruth made a comments last week saying that she started at MK when she was 35. That’s really insane when you think about it.

She probably wants me to start thinking about my future here and also probably like, gurl, you need to be getting out of here.

I’m pretty satisfied with myself in terms of my career, love and financial status. I feel like I’m exactly where I need to be and really enjoy my work life balance at the moment.

So this Christmas Uncle Alvin and Aunt Cindy got to Eskie Poos. 

The most adorable puppies. They said that there was actually a third puppy they wanted to get also but gladly they decided to deal with just the two. 

I remember when I was 17 or 18 I brought home little baby Rocky. Luckily uncle and Aunt Cindy was nice enough to let us keep Rocky. 

Max and Luna are so adorable and so much fun. So Adorable to see sibling puppies play together. 

Last year was a difficult year for me. Grandpa passed in May 19, 2018. That really hit hard because I was really close to him. He taught me so many things growing up here

My grandfather was one of the most influential family members growing up. He taught us the principles of respect and the importance of being a good citizen and doing the right thing. 

He will live on in my hearts as the greatest man in the family, I hope that I can someday live up to his legacy. 

During his last days he mustered enough strength to say that he was really proud of me. 😢😢😢 #RIP

It’s finally official. I’m 35 years old.
 Looking back at what I’ve been able to accomplish I feel pretty good about what I’ve done.
 
 We own a place in Chelsea, I’m in a loving relationship, I have a great job and feel there is much more to prove in terms of growth at work.
 
 Turning 35 for me is kind of a mid way point where I feel like I need to start planning the future. Having kids has always been a priority which means we really need to get that ball rolling.
 
 For now maybe I can hold off for a little. It’s going to be the largest commitment and it won’t be easy.

I just found out that my dad passed away today.
He actually tried to call me yesterday at 4:02pm.

If I had the chance to speak with him again I would say:
“Dad, even though you were never there for me , I love you”.
I’m sorry for:
not being there for you
not sending fathers day cards
Not sharing my life with you
Not calling you back

The truth is that I’m an awful son.

I wish that you were the father I always wanted. Someone to protect me and support me growing up. Someone to be there on holidays and birthdays. I wish I could have told you face to face that I was gay. I wish that I could have told you and that you said you loved me no matter what.

Looking back one of the only times I can remember you there for a big moment was at my college graduation. You and Aunt Amy were there. Allison came to celebrate dinner with us.

From your Shis:
I heard someone say once that we choose who our parents are. Dad was meant to be our father and he was the type of father that we needed. We can’t blame him for not being there, he had a rough childhood and didn’t have a father himself. Without him we wouldn’t have Grandma and Grandpa, UA and AC, Wei and Aus. You wouldn’t have your condo… there’s so much. He has impacted our lives more than you realize. He was around in a way everyday.

Also, you were a good son to him. You sent him money when he asked, got him a cell phone. The best thing you did for him is that you made sure you were successful, he never had to worry about.

I love you Brother, don’t feel guilty bc there’s nothing to be guilty about. We’ll get through this together.

So this weekend we celebrated sisters 35th birthday!! 

We first started the surprise with having B and Miki come on Friday instead of Saturday and as we were on the train my mom called and ruined the surprise. I accidentally told her that I was with B on the train and she called Sister after and told her “your brother and Furry are going to see you! “. I should’ve known to tell her not to Adis but I didn’t think about it. 

We had a nice dinner at Aji sushi and just chilled at her house after. On Saturday we did our usual dim sum treat and spent the first part about of the day browsing Barnes, Michaels and BB&B.  

After dim sum was digested we headed to Island Spa. This was B’s first time at the spa. It kind of got ruined in the beginning because of our scrub delay. I had an embarrassing moment with a HO during the scrub. I tried everything including doing my math times tables but it didn’t work. :-( it wasn’t for the whole time but to be honest, I’m glad that we finally had our first scrub together. 

After the scrub and saunas we met sister and went into the hot rooms and played some scrabble. We got so carried away playing games that we missed dinner at the spa. We forgot the kitchen closed at 10pm. 

For dinner we ended up going back to Aji since that was the only place open at that time. 

On Sunday we had a suprise planned for Adis. The plan was to meet for dim sum but since we had the dogs we had to drop them off at Uncles first. When we did uncle was fully dressed in his jumpsuit to work on the car. Allison was like “no, not working on the car today etc… And he was really adamant about us just helping him rotate something heavy in the garage. After she finally agreed to help for a second she walks into the darkly lit garage with the family (A.Amy, A.Cindy, Chris, Austin, Ariel ) huddled in the dark holding a cake lit with birthday candles. She got teary eyed and was so shocked and surprised. We actually did it!!! It was so awesome. 

After the suprise we took the doggies to Holmdel park to go for a nice walk together. 

We ended the night with Vietnamese food before our train ride home. 

Exhausting weekend but well worth it! It’s kind of unbelievable that Adis is 35. Time is really flying by and I don’t know if I’m ready for #mid30s yet! :-( 

Feeing a little bad about being such a bitch lately. 

My mom and dad are in town and with the amount of calls I get from my Mom or any other family gets me stressed out and I just kind of take it out on my mom. I feel really bad about being so rude to her. 

I’ve decided that I’m going to really be cautious of what I say now. It’s not right. 

Today, I stopped by uniqlo to get my dad a warm jacket. He didn’t have anything warm to wear. Seeing him smile about getting the jacket and some shirts and thermals really made me happy. He’s not the type to complain or bitch about anything. I used to get angry because I always felt that he was able to ask anyone for help financially and they would help him. 

Now, I feel kind of different about it. I’m in a position to be able to help him so why not. Sometimes it takes a little bit of reflection to remember what it takes to be good.